Why Manny, Why?

Well,

I have 2 or three other blog posts I have been working on, and planned on posting one this weekend until about 6p.m. last night. Usually my blog posts come with a warning or prologue to give you a heads up on what follows. I do this because I never intended to start a blog and when I did I vowed to make sure not to pigeon0hole my topics into one subject matter and become stale. Sure, the blog my become stale anyways do to the same guy writing everything, but at least I tried. Right?

Here is your warning for today: This blog  post was completely unplanned, unedited, it rambles on and like most stories I tell people It doesn’t really have a point…OK are we ready?

Last night, I was checking twitter while in the bathroom, and my eye triple-checked what I was reading. Shocked and doubtful I asked myself if it was April fool’s day, but, alas, that was over a week ago.

Sadly, I learned Manny Ramirez had retired from baseball rather than face another suspension for a failed drug test. Now I understand a grown man should not be so involved in sports to the point it can effect his mood, but we all know I am not a grown man.

Growing up in Buffalo baseball was not high on my priorities. Football, soccer, and hockey were the sports I grew up watching and playing, but when my family relocated to Cleveland in the early 90’s it was the perfect time to catch Indians Fever. In 1994 we had a new ballpark and a young exciting team.

Quickly I learned of Albert Belle, Man Ram, Thome, Sorrento, Bearga, Omar Vizquel, Wayne Kirby, Glen Allen Hill, Eddie freakin’ Murray, Kenny Lofton, The Bulldog Oral Hersheiser, El Presidente Dennis Martinez, The ageless wonder Julio Franco, Sandy Alomar Jr., Felix Fermin, Chuck Nagy, Jose Mesa, The wild thing Ricky Vaughn…ok, that last one might not count, but you get the idea, right?

These guys were awesome! These guys were fun to watch, and so easy to root for. I spent the 90’s and early 2000’s learning the game of baseball one home run at a time. I delivered Pizza’s late while glued to the radio unwilling to leave my car and miss a pitch or two.

I had my heart broken in ’95 when the miracle group of young misfits took us to the series. I marveled with a roomful of friends as Tony Pena outsmarted hitters and base-runners to help us advance. In1996 I was at the ballpark as the Tribe gave up a game winning, season ending home run to Roberto Alomar and The Orioles.  I served David Justice a hamburger when I worked at Wendy’s and welcomed him to town although just 2 years earlier he had been public enemy number one on the Atlanta Braves team. Mike Hargrove, the manager of the team, moved to my hometown and I attended school with his daughter. At the 1996 graduation I was in student council, so I lead the Hargrove family to their seats at the ceremony. In 1997 the most magical year I will ever experience around the game of baseball I literally lived and died with every pitch all the way through the debacle of game seven. I watched the end of the game on a small 13 inch tv at the pizza shop I worked at with my good buddy Eric Saule. We walked around in a daze for days after that game, disbelief at what we had seen.

Shortly after that season the Tribe began to lose it’s young core who were now seasoned veterans to trades, injuries, and free agency. A new group was brought in with some stellar players, but looking back it was not the same nor can it ever be.

My favorite player at the time was Manny Ramirez. The guy was so powerful and played the game lightly enough that you knew the stress of a big time at bat against a big time pitcher meant nothing. You knew with one swing of his bat the game could be saved, and the city had a chance to win. Manny Ramirez is a big reason why I fell in love with baseball. He is a part of the reason my first novel was built around the game of baseball.

As of 603pm yesterday I can never look back at those times the same way again. The cloud of drug use over the game of baseball has tainted everything I thought I knew. Call it overly dramatic if you want, but it is true. I understand a lot of the arguments that there has always been cheating in baseball. Players do anything and everything to gain an advantage. Albert allegedly corked his bat, teams steal signals, and for some reason that stuff is just fine. In fact when Albert’s bat went missing before they could suspend him I thought it was hilarious.

Also, I understand baseball purists hated the steroid era for pumping up numbers and making baseball more about the big hits than the fundamentals the game was built on. Solid defense, steals, and bunts should be enough to win games, they say.  While I agree watching the Indians win on a suicide squeeze the other night was outstanding, seeing Manny Ramirez crush a three run homer to the upper decks was mind blowingly awesome.

In 2011 there are just a few remaining players from those young teams, and though Manny hasn’t been a member of the Indians since 2000 I always watched and rooted for him (though I never rooted for the Red Sox). Jim Thome is a part time DH still slugging homers, Omar is a back up third baseman for the White Sox, but the likes of Albert, Lofton, Sorrento, Alomar, and the others are long gone.

What does this all mean? Well, at the beginning of the post I told you I had no end goal or point I just needed to vent in my selfish, child of the 80’s way that my magical sports childhood was like a ride at Disney…a thrill, but in the end all it boiled down to was a bunch of smoke and mirrors.

I look forward to taking my son to a baseball game in the near future, and now that my parents have moved back into the area my dad and brother can join us, but no matter how much I love the game with Manny gone, at least for me, it will never be the same.

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my book, “a life of inches” in 140 words

Ok, so I have set out to describe my novel, “a life of inches” in 140 characters or less as part of a contest put on by this blog by @Shelley_Watters. Please feel free to comment and criticize. I strongly encourage positive and negative feedback. If you are an author I strongly suggest you check out her blog and twitter. There is a lot of info to be read there.

Title: a life of inches
Genre: General fiction
Word count: 88,000

A love triangle plays out on a baseball diamond as Ryan squares off with injury, addiction, and the luckiest man alive for Molly’s heart.

So this is version 4.0 thanks to all who have offered feedback so far! Please keep it coming. This has been a great experience thus far, and I can’t wait to read some of the books I have read about from your pitches.

here are older drafts for comparison:

a love triangle plays out around a baseball diamond as three friends square off to determine who will stand in the winner’s circle

a love triangle plays out around a baseball diamond as ryan squares off against Woodie to win Molly’s heart.

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updating my goals(only now you know)

Warning: If you do not want to know anything about the future, like Doc Brown, do not read this post! It contains a snippet of a radio broadcast from many years from now. Some people think to know the future could cause a paradox or alter our reality in some crazy and terrible way. If you do not know what I am talking about or do not believe me please go watch Howard The Duck or read The Guardians Of The Galaxy.

Many years from now, on the radio, the people of the galaxy will hear this(or something similar) broadcast by Paul Harvey the 5th:

“Many years ago, as the 20th century faded into memory, a young man from Cleveland, Ohio toiled away at various dead end jobs and dreamed big dreams while wishing small wishes.  The city and its proud country of The United States of America was fighting a depression, a war, and an NFL lockout all at once and things had never been more bleak for the people.

We have so many amazing stories of heroism, villainy, and change during this age, but today we are going to focus on this young man from Cleveland. We will watch him toil away at a fast food restaurant, deliver pizzas to non-tipping customers in two feet of snow, instruct many a patient on the proper use of oxygen and electric beds, and we will watch his futile efforts to fulfill those dreams and wishes he covets.

The man performs live music with several bands, writes and self publishes children’s picture books, and even, with the help of his supportive wife, completes several novels and short stories which he is proud of, but the public does not know his name. And in the years to come they will not know his name either for his work is sub-par and lacking of any polish.

If there was one character flaw which held him back it would be stubbornness. Yes, the man realized too late in the game that he had fought his whole life against those who would have helped him succeed, if only, he made a few small concessions. The man never did and he watched the world spin by outside his delivery trucks window as he continued dreaming his big dreams and making his small wishes.

In the end doubt, rejection of his works, and the knowledge he had been his own worst enemy the man finally grasp and admitted he would never be recognized as the artist he craved to be. He drove his truck, supported his family, and watched with failing health from poor eating and exercise habits…as his son became one of the most recognized names in history. The mans name was Douglas. The sons name was Owen Dean Esper, only now you know….the rest of the story.

GO OWEN!

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BOOK REVIEW: BRIGHT SHINY DAY by James Frey

Four rays of Los Angeles sunshine peek out in a bloated, unorganized affair in which the biggest character is the city itself. Sure, Bright Shiny Day has its moments and those moments are suburb, but this book feels like a cop-out in many ways.

Author James Frey, best known for his Oprah book club fiasco, offers up multiple story-lines which take place at various racial, economical, moral, and geographical points around the city of Los Angeles. The various characters become instantly recognizable as the Hollywood stereotypes they are. Whether its the insanely rich, closet homosexual, actor who feels he can get away with anything, the homeless man with a heart, or the young couple fleeing terrible Ohio for a fresh start, you will find it very easy to invest yourself in these characters and either root or jeer them as they progress.

The stories are told at random points and random lengths throughout the book and interspersed are “tidbits” and stories from Los Angeles’ past. At first this becomes a great way to set the scene and gear someones mind to not only recognize but to understand the city and how it is different from other metropolitan areas. However, as the book drags and the tidbits and stories get longer and longer they take away from the main story completely.

About halfway through the book I found myself wishing Mr. Frey would just cut them out and get back to the story. About three-fourths of the way through I found myself questioning whether I cared enough to continue walking through the nuggets of trash polluting the sands of Venice Beach he was passing off as entertainment.

The facts never stop coming and, in fact, late in the book they seem to get worse as if he realized his book would be way to short without more randomness. At this point he starts adding short snippets of stories and introducing new characters, some fiction and some non-fiction, that have nothing to do with the book. Just like the lengthy history of the city these snippets become weeds snuffing out the rose of a story he was crafting.

Luckily, I listened to the book on CD and the reader, actor Ben Foster, was on point the whole book. His various voices, intensity, and most important his humorous excitement during the lengthy interludes kept the book entertaining long after the writing had ceased to do so.

Perhaps, in the end, I just didn’t grasp how “LA” the book and stories were. Maybe, as a Cleveland, Ohio native with a below average education and an unnatural love of overeating I just missed the point. In the end, I feel like, Bright Shiny Day gets lost in the Los Angeles smog.

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CD REVIEW: MUDFOOT

Grab a bottle of hand sanitizer, a towel, some bleach, a bar of soap, mouth wash, and for good measure get yourself a silver cross because today we are breaking down an album by MUDFOOT, and by the time we are done you will feel dirty.

Usually found singing for nickles around the liquor store on East 72nd and St. Clair, Mudfoot is a blues/rock band intent on drinking, smoking, and taking out the ladies…to drink and smoke. This seven song love affair with hard liquor and partying is a fun ride that takes you from the east side of Cleveland out to the mean streets of Chardon.

“Foxy Little Freak” is a smooth number perfect for a Billy Dee Williams movie from the 70’s. Think SNL’s Ladies Man meets Cleveland’s own Unified Culture. The Rapture observed on their last record that dancing has become a lost art form, but one listen to this tune and even the whitest dudes will find a little rhythm.

Though I don’t smoke myself I can’t help but wish “Smoke Every Day” was my theme song. Ultra cool, ultra catchy, and impossible to hear without getting the room to sing along. Funky guitars swerve over laid back percussion and a simple yet effective bass line. The lyrics may seem straightforward, but I think if you live in Mudfoot’s world you can understand that to live the life can be tough.

That tough life can be draining, thus Mudfoot breaks it down on “We Gonna Get Rocked”, an introspective number that philosophizes on the finer points of partying all night long, strong liquor, and the ultimate question, “Why am I here?” Laugh if you want, or pass this band off as a joke, but I dare you not to get hooked with lyrics like, “If you’re sitting all alone then you can drink with me. Just don’t bother me with your tales of misery.”

Parents, are you having trouble teaching your kids about drinking? Try track 6, “Cheap Ass Beer” before the kids at school tell your kids the wrong way to drink.

Closing out the disc is a straight blues track that is as universal to life as, say, “We Are The World”. Everyone can relate to the song’s message in one way or another. The thing that differentiates this track is the sleazy, thick, dirty, lead guitar line that leaves you searching for a bar of soap to clean off the residue. “You a cold-hearted woman, baby, and I think I’m ’bout freeze. If it wasn’t for this here whiskey I’d have your frostbites all over me”. It’s a memorable line from “Cold Hearted Woman” that welcomes all the lonely hearts and thirsty mouths to drink, slug, slam, and chug their drinks of choice.

The best part about the album? You can listen to the whole thing free at http://originalpranksta.com/mudfoot.php and I suggest you do ASAP.

Doug Esper

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